7:16AM

It's 7:16AM, and I'm mentally smashing my head against the wall as I wonder "what the hell am I going to do with my life?" I mean REALLY I'm almost 17, but I have no idea what I want. I barely even have anything to live for.

SO I can't help but think: what's the point? What's my purpose in life? Do I even have one?

And then I yell at myself some mentally, cause homework is late, I have a week of class left, I'm STILL single, and I'm starting my period within the next week.

I'm too worried about what classes I still need to take in-order to graduate this time next year, and how I need to make ALL As to make up for the Fs in sophomore year. Then I think, what self-respecting college is gunna take my failing butt in anyways? Which also leads to the question of where am I going to apply anyways, and that reminds me again that I'm prob not going to be making those As cause I'm just going to screw up again and get F, C, B, and A grades again next year.

What's wrong with my life? Why am I so unmotivated?

I also think I should probably get a job soon... but I have a big anxiety about that. I'm nervous, what if no one wants to hire me? I don't have hardly any skill sets. What do I say in the interview? How the hell do I even fill out that application forum?

Well I should probably go do something productive now....